No Entiendo

 

 

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I will like to share the poem “No Entiendo” with you. It  is taken from my book Splendor from Ashes. It was written as I contemplated my journey with its various high points and fair amount of challenges and the seeming comparative inadequacy of my responses. I hope it sets you thinking.

No Entiendo (2012)
Then
gazing toward the horizon
with youthful investments of confidence that
in time we will understand. Get a handle on the puzzle.
Be better at strategizing
for living and loving and being.
Surely like fine wine wisdom will increase in the school of aging.
Surely early stumblings will decline
in the midst of the unfolding surge.

Now,
poised mid-staircase, we’ve still not arrived
’cause we’re still locked on the platform of reaching,
locked in the embrace of youthful yearning
for life’s beautiful things: understanding and clarity
which we no more possess than when we first began.
At the finish as at the start,
we’re condemned soldiers of the dark,
questing for that ever receding light.

Abstractions from “No Entiendo”

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Abstractions from “No Entiendo”

The Inadequacy of Subjective Reasoning

Sometimes we think that insight gained as a result of overcoming one challenge would make the next issue we face more intelligible. However, when confronted with the next issue our learning proves to be inadequate and we are again floored. Is it that human reasoning is utterly deficient and therefore not to be trusted? Why is it that when we attempt to bring scrutiny to our logical processes by introspective analysis we still feel like life is an unintelligible abstract concept,  beyond our grasp?

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As noted in “No Entiendo” it is logical to think that with experience in the process of time one would be able to accurately abstract the principles/rules by which to understand the puzzle that is life itself. Yet even with years of experience we shudder at the daunting errors we make as we seek to identify life’s signposts and signifiers? Why does life continue to be vague and ambiguous and largely undefined? Is it that life itself transcends any ideas we may have so that as the Bible says we are condemned to be “ever learning and never coming to an understanding of the truth/life?

Probable vs Actual

Since our journey seems, to be limited by subjective understandings then perhps there is really an objective understanding that we should be reaching for. Then perhaps we need to step outside of the subjective realm of understandings  so that we can access objective understandings. Access to more objective understandings can only constitute a real and fuller picture for arrival at greater mental clarity. Accuracy of arrival at this position should help us to more effectively determine causation and its effects  which need to be grasped in order  for us to loop over the tragic/empty  spaces that place limitations on our understandings. Only then would we be able to establish the difference between the probable and the actual, which are key to moving from the darkness of mis-understanding and the  unintelligible, to well lighted spaces of understanding.

From  Dr. Ingrid Rizzolo the author of  Splendor from Ashes

45 thoughts on “No Entiendo

  1. I am still intrigued by how mirror or similar circumstances occur over lifetime. Lessons to be learned? Tests of will? Deja vu?

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  2. I pray for discernment from God which helps me to have clarity, and at a moments notice a new vision and plan. I don’t believe that life will ever be without challenges, but am thankful that God leads us to understanding.

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  3. very well thought out! I have never considered this before… I think all problems are different slightly. maybe the small every day issues get easier. but bigger life lessons will always be a challenge.

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  4. I like the poem. I think the life will always be a puzzle for us, no matter how much experience we have. With more experience we just reach higher levels of game named life.

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  5. It’s funny, my husband was just commenting on how our son looks at us and assumes we know everything, the same way we looked at adults when we were kids, and that someday he is going to be our age and realize that he still doesn’t feel like he knows anything, the way we do now.

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  6. Sam – Thiswaymommy
    Very deep thoughts. For me, life is always a series of continuous moving parts. I like your mention of the fact that sometimes we master one part and are completely dumfounded by the next..

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  7. This is why life is so intriguing, just like a puzzle. Feel frustrated when we can not solve a puzzle given by the God.. Nice read

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  8. I think you’ve hit the nail on the head here – I only recently stumbled upon the idea of viewing everything objectively, instead of subjectively. It helps a lot, although it’s always easier to analyse whether someone else is thinking subjectively or not…

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  9. I loved your poem and thoughts! I have an adult son and we were discussing this very thing at midnight last night, we discussed how making mistakes is something we all go through our entire lives… From the 2 year old who takes a toy away from another child, all the way through life. We are constantly learning. Sometimes we repeat mistakes. Sometimes we try things that simply don’t work out. What is so beautiful is that the human heart longs to reach a threshold where they no longer make mistakes. But we can learn in all situations, and we are not any less loved or valued because of the mistakes we have made.

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  10. One of the most thought provoking blog posts I’ve read this week. I feel like life is always changing and people are always in a constant state of evolving from books we read, people we meet and experiences we have every day so I think what we learn or draw from life is different for everyone. I also believe the more introspective and aware a person is of these ebbs and flows of life, the easier it is to accept the fact that we will never ‘master’ or be prepared for what life gives to us, so it’s best to just take it as it comes. Great post!

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